As we approach the end of 2012, I'm looking forward with great anticipation to 2013 and the hope that 2013 will bring Hannah* home.
Yet reflecting on 2012 - my year of perseverance - there is much to remember, to rejoice over and to mourn over.
In February, I began writing again with seriousness, discovered the first bits of knowing this writing thing is a huge part of me, and reflected on my 29th year - the worst and best year of my life.
In March, I shared with you about Hannah - my someday daughter - and my plan to move home to Lubbock to adopt her. As I prepared to move, I reflected on the lessons I learned through my South African experience.
In April, I moved home to Lubbock and asked the question, "Ok, God, I'm here...now what?" I talked with you about how I'm doing on the single path and how I think we can do better as a church in supporting those who are single and those who are married.
In May, I dealt with reverse culture shock. I shared my journey to discovering my own femininity and the reason I gave up vegetarianism for flexatarianism. I also waited for a job and discovered God's enough.
In July, I was reminding that persevering is about the how you get there. I moved into my grandmother's old home and began to prepare a space for Hannah. We completed my home study and headed into the next phase of the adoption process.
In August, the blog grew and we moved. I admitted to the way worry plagues my mind, and we started the Live Simply series. We talked about women overcoming, choosing to overcome, and my own personal journey living with an eating disorder.
In September, we didn't do much because I injured my eye and wasn't able to look at a computer screen for several weeks, but we did talk about practicing rest.
In October, I started internet dating and more importantly was approved by Homeland Security to adopt internationally.
In November, we went to the polls. I found out my first post college employer was closing its doors, leading me to have a conversation with my Portland self. And I celebrated my first Thanksgiving in four years.
There were parts of this year which were far harder than I would have chosen for myself. There were moments when persevering seemed impossible and when the little insignificant things seemed to overwhelm. There were great joys and great opportunities. There was abundant blessing and heart-stopping lament.
The world did not end, the zombies did not attack and we did not fall into complete moral decay and ruin.
We stood together in the wake or hurricanes and shootings and impossible things. We brought down HIV infection rates and poverty rates. We rose, we overcame and we renewed our faith. We trusted, we believed, we loved.
2012 was a good year, and I'm believing so for 2013 as well.
*Hannah is a pseudonym. In order to protect her identity until she is fully and legally mine, I use "Hannah" in all online activity regarding my someday daughter and her adoption.
Please consider helping us raise the last bit of Hannah's adoption fees:
1. Buy a t-shirt from AdoptionBug.com.
2. Buy coffee from JustLoveCoffee.com.
3. Send a check to Oasis Haven US: (Your gift through Oasis Haven US is tax deductible.)
PO Box 28362
San Diego, CA
*Please write "adoption support" on the memo line.